I keep getting questions about when I haven't taken initiative from people and in interview settings. As in, can I work for other people? or will I? Yes of course I will. I never got those questions before when I was working. But now that I'm not and I'm forced to take matters into my own hands (i.e. initiative) I seem to look like a loner.
People don't understand that our lives are as much about reaction as action. I went to Sierra Leone because I didn't have a job that would send me there. Or even a job that would let me work on things that mattered there, or a job that I was even trained for. I went to Occupy because I wasn't afforded the opportunity to live a sustainable life on my own where I was, and started my own thing at Occupy because what I saw the movement needed wasn't there. I've volunteerd politically, I've tried starting businesses, I've officiated girls lacrosse, walked into unsavory places, done whatever, because I can't get anyone else to do it for me - give me a job, or even interviews for that matter. These two interviews I just had are things I'm not qualified for. I'm not an executive asistant and I don't have quantitative methods work. I don't know how the interviews came to be, but I couldn't have gotten the positions without a miraculous and magical show at the interviews.
Point being. I don't want to do all these things on my own. I don't want to ALWAYS have to take initiative. I want a job. I've tried to find a partner for the Sierra Leone stuff desperately but to no avail. Since I came back to this country, I have had to take my own initiative simply to stay afloat. It's not because I want to live that kind of life, it's because I've had to. I do what it takes. Sadly, that is not what people see when they read my resume, they only seem to see gaps and instability rather than thinking about it and wondering why: because all of our lives tie back into the bigger picture. And because in that bigger picture, our economy sucks and their are too few jobs! So I've tried to create my own avenues, as a survivor masquerading as a unfocused slacker....
People don't understand that our lives are as much about reaction as action. I went to Sierra Leone because I didn't have a job that would send me there. Or even a job that would let me work on things that mattered there, or a job that I was even trained for. I went to Occupy because I wasn't afforded the opportunity to live a sustainable life on my own where I was, and started my own thing at Occupy because what I saw the movement needed wasn't there. I've volunteerd politically, I've tried starting businesses, I've officiated girls lacrosse, walked into unsavory places, done whatever, because I can't get anyone else to do it for me - give me a job, or even interviews for that matter. These two interviews I just had are things I'm not qualified for. I'm not an executive asistant and I don't have quantitative methods work. I don't know how the interviews came to be, but I couldn't have gotten the positions without a miraculous and magical show at the interviews.
Point being. I don't want to do all these things on my own. I don't want to ALWAYS have to take initiative. I want a job. I've tried to find a partner for the Sierra Leone stuff desperately but to no avail. Since I came back to this country, I have had to take my own initiative simply to stay afloat. It's not because I want to live that kind of life, it's because I've had to. I do what it takes. Sadly, that is not what people see when they read my resume, they only seem to see gaps and instability rather than thinking about it and wondering why: because all of our lives tie back into the bigger picture. And because in that bigger picture, our economy sucks and their are too few jobs! So I've tried to create my own avenues, as a survivor masquerading as a unfocused slacker....
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